i take weekly, monthly intervals between entries nowadays. i dont know why exactly... guess i dont have much of an urge to write anymore. then again i dont really have an urge to do anything period. not that im lazy... i just dont see a point of doing anything when all i seem to do is for everyone else but myself...

the comeback is long overdue.
did you really think i was out this xanga piece like that.?
thought so.
yes im back you fucks.
love it, appreciate it,
thats the beauty of me.
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life has been taking serious turns for me. some good, some bad, some that just has to be done. all in all i am content with myself, not with my life or how its getting to where i want it to go, but content on how i have grown as an individual. lately, i have had certain conversations with very important people in my life. people that take some type of significance to who i am and what i have become.
i have always liked to consider myself somewhat of a strong person, someone who is openminded, and at the same time very strong willed. i wouldnt necessarilly say that i have alot of pride, but i do feel very strongly in the things i believe in and in feeling that specific way... i like to be persistent on how i can make those specific things happen for myself...



• socially  _ im doing perfectly fine. i am content with the company that my friends provide me with. that. and it feels good to be active. as far as meeting new people.? i dont need to know anyone. everyone just wants to know me. no. im kidding. HAH. as far as the 'friends' go... friends who drop friends.? those arent friends. those are acquaintances. we never do learn how to seperate the two.
• financially _ im doing so so. still doing the field technician thang thang. works starting up again.. and thats always a good sign. BONUS CHECK is on the way. well well. lets see yall get at that however, i am still on my search for a second job. and if its possible for me to juggle... a third. gotta make that paper if i need to get where i want to go...
• school wise  _ ehh. still on hold. but... i am planning to go back next semester. taken care of that general ed bull to move on to something that much more official.
• physically  _ ive put myself on a diet. thats right you fucks.. A DIET. although i am eating regularly.. i am cutting down on carbohydrates, sugary and fatty foods... amongst other things. that. and ive been jogging like its nobodys business. hiking is also an activity i am currently participating in. and no. i dont think im fat nor is my plan to lose weight. im getting in shape. im going from packless to at least a pack.. and a half if im lucky.
• mentally  _ alot of my friends have been pushing me to be all that i can be. and as cliche as that sounds.. its actually somewhat of a motivational push. to see them excel just makes me want to work harder for me. and only me (for the time being anyway..). i have my problems, as does everyone else, but at this point in time... im more accepting than i used to be. it might just be a quarter life crisis or a stirring in my soul... either way. im smiling.
• emotionally  _ i would like to think that i have been emotionally stable, which i havent, but... i do have an understanding of my situation. i no longer have the urge to automatically blame myself for how i feel. or for how i go about my business. its MY business. so for those who feel the need to catch attitude and throw it my way.? take it somewhere else... because for damn sure i am not hesitate to throw some back...
• relations  _ the break that is currently in play is still on. and although our relationship is on pause i love him still. and will forever. he is mine as i am his. nothing or no one will change that. yes bitches. im not going anywhere. try and move me. all youll get is a mouthful of my fists. it seems as if the break is making the best out of us as individuals. i know this will better us as one as well. husband. you fuck. i love you still. and YES. the team i was rooting for won the superbowl. HAH.
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and that, my faithful readers
is the long official update.
ill be back...
love me like you did...
like you always have.
leave it.
id be much appreciated.

xanga is DONE.
fuck off.